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Things are good.

Been awhile. Yes I know. I’ve missed you too.

Things here are moving forward, if haltingly.

Daddio and Vex have been going up and down with sharp inclines and, at the moment, are mellowed out enough that I think they both are enjoying the breather. Daddio is taking steps to modify the CO and potentially looking at where he stands with a change in custody in the next year or so. Shall see.

I’ve hit a plateau in my weightloss because of my own fault. I’m just maintaining at the moment. I need to get back to the mindset of actually loosing the weight. I am making better choices, but I’m giving into temptation too often.

Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels.

So true. Need to remember when that when my son shoves a gooey yummy donut in my face while my tummy is growling for lunch. Le sigh.

I’m feeling motivated. Really motivated. I want to re-do my life. I want to chisel in some changes. Fine tuning if you will.

Of course I want to continue to lose weight. I would like to reach 160 before Daddio & I are TTC this summer. That’s just over 40 lbs. I CAN do it. Absolutely.

Also,

I would like to put together a $1,000 savings pot with Daddio. We have debts, but I would like to see us have $1,000 tucked aside for family emergencies.

I would also like to start doing No Spend Days twice a week. This will be hard for me. I like to spend. A lot. And I see that I am teaching my son that it’s OK to spend money easily.

Likewise, Daddio and I want to challenge ourselves to a 90-day shopping free living existence. Say What? For 90 days Daddio and I will not purchase anything that is not needed. Food & toiletries are acceptable. New clothing, gadgets, books, magazines, etc. Not so much.

Likewise, I want to start “No Drive Days”. Days where I am able to entertain MFOC in our home with whatever we have on hand already.

Tweaks. Fine tuning. Things like that. I want to make them happen. I want to find contentment in what God has already blessed me with and not worry about what else is out there that I could be adding to my collection.

Skinny Mom & Thin Dad

As previously posted I am currently transforming myself into a cook. Each week (or everyday, whatev) I scour the internet searching for the next WW friendly recipe to use on my family. Each meal must meet specific requirements.

1 – Must not be over 6 points a serving.

2 – Must be easy to make by my retarted-so-not-a-chef self.

3 – Must have ingredients I can actually FIND in Target.

and 4 – Must be something I could envision MFOC actually eating without making horrid “Mom you’re trying to poison me” faces.

One time Daddio cooked this awesome coconut curry meal that was delish to the max, only the amount of curry in it did not agree with MFOC’s mouth and thus we lost the dinner battle that night.

So, the other night, as I am searching the kitchen to try and find where exactly Daddio has put the saucepans and mixing spoons (dude, for the last 6 months I have not cooked ONCE…) I realized that this whole dinner thing would be SO much easier if they had a cookbook that was dedicated to easy meals that were healthy, home cooked, and 100% toddler approved. And by healthy I mean aimed at letting mom & dad drop a few pounds. ***

Because, really, how many parents who are just starting to refocus on getting healthy or cooking more want to open a cookbook and think to themselves “Oh, spaghetti squash with avocado pesto sauce would be amazing tonight!” (Note, that is currently our meal plan for Saturday, though…) So I turned to Daddio and blurted “We should write a cookbook and have it focused on easy meals low in points that toddlers like which also come withe the option to make in bulk to be frozen and/or used the following day as leftovers for lunches.”

And I think it should have two sections. First is all for the beginners. People like ME who have a desire to start cooking more and making healthy choices for the family but have no idea where the sauce spoons are.

And the second half are for people like Daddio. Who totally know where the sauce spoons are AND know where to find the measuring cups and have reached the “I actually like to cook” point in their lives.

I’m trying to get there people. Trying.

So we’re going to start a “Skinny Mom & Thin Dad” franchise with our first cookbook being called “Baby Steps to Cooking Fit” Because nothing solves the problem of being over worked like adding another project to the mix.

HOWEVER, I’m excited because since the first week that I’ve known Daddio, he’s always commented on wanting to write a cookbook. And I’ve always thought he was looney because no way was I about to spend five years being his guinea pig on how to take traditional English meals and create them on traditional American ingredients. Besides, who exactly was going to BUY that kind of cook book to compensate me for the amount of guineapigging I’d be forced to do in order to support him?

But this? Yeah this whole Skinny Mom/Thin Dad bit is good. Real good. Because Daddio can write and I can learn to cook and together we can focus on teaching our kids how to eat healthy and that cooking your own food is awesome and not totally hippie.

I am excited people.

Now I just need to figure out exactly how to go about the whole coming up with recipes thing. Only a minor set back …

*** I’m sure such a cook-book does exist however for our family we will simply pretend it doesnt and contribute to the pollution of self-help-make-me-skinny-family-friendly-cook-books that sit on the shelves of families across the country.

oh not again

Going through the open tabs and trying to consolidate them as much as possible or at least close the ones I really don’t care enough about to continue reading and I stumbled on this little jewel.

http://www.faintstarlite.com/2009/10/the-naked-truth/

At first I was having a fun giggle or two at the images of her being ‘dangerously close’ to fitting into her favorite jeans again. But something she said stuck with me in regards to her post-baby body –

‘It’s as if I have to make peace with my body again. No cardio will ever lift my c-section scar or my stretch marks – they’re my baby battle wounds. But… I will fit in my jeans again. I can do the work to make that happen. And, I will find a way to feel sexy again.’
Since MFOC was born I’ve yo-yoed up and down with the same 10 pounds. Very long yo-yos, but still the same. The truth is, I think a part of my was too scared to face the reality.

No matter how much weight I lose, my body will NEVER be the way it was when I was 19.

Some of the changes in my body would require lots of expensive and unneeded surgeries in order to make it look like “before”. Who wants to admit that? Who wants to admit that even after all the hard work and reaching that end goal, seeing the goal weight on the scale, that even then you still won’t look like those models. It makes you wonder in the back of your head if it’s worth it. If the struggle is worth it.

I am not just on a quest to reach a specific weight. I am on a quest to find myself sexy again. Sexy in a make love with the lights on kind of way. The physical marks on my body from pregnancy and birthing a child are never.going.away. Even with losing 60+ pounds (in the end) they will still be there.

And my boobs will still sag.

I need to be able to understand that, expect it, respect it. I have to find a way to make peace with my ‘mommy body’ and while I get fit & healthy I need to be embracing the changes my body went through 3 years ago and not let it hold me back from feeling sexy and attractive.

I need to redefine my idea of sexy to include room for saggy skin, stretch marks, and even a little muffin-top. I need to redefine what sexy is to me, so that I can be able to view myself as fitting into that definition.

A New Lifestyle

So in my quest to follow through with the weight loss I’ve adapted the mindset that this is not a diet, it’s a lifestyle change.

We are changing habits people. Habits that have been going on for over 25 years of life. This is not just going to take some 21 days. It’s going to take lots of focus.

A ramble if you’ll allow me … I used to take my daily points and divide them evenly between meals with putting just a couple extra for dinner. However I found that this did not fit out family’s living habits very well. Daddio likes to cook and I like to just sit with the family at dinner time and enjoy myself, not obsess about points. So through some trial and error I decided to re-structure my day to allow myself more leeway at dinner.

I am not a big breakfast eater, never have been, but I knew how beneficial it is to have “something” for breakfast. So I allowed myself 4 points for breakfast. That’s 1 slimfast and a piece of fruit or two eggs. A piece of toast and a yogurt. Just enough to have “something” but not where I feel sick because I’m eating too much.

Same for lunch. I try to stay below 6 points at all costs. Then I normally need a snack around 3 or 4 and the rest is for dinner with a ‘treat’ in the evenings if I have anything left. That’s just what seems to work best for me right now.

However, I am very aware as I lose weight I will be having less and less points available. Plus I want to be more proactive in this, so I started to hunt for recipes that I could make which would be low in points, easy, and affordable.

Sooooooo many times I read a recipe and I think about how I have no idea what half the ingredients are. I wanted to find things that I might just already have half the ingredients on hand. Not to mention I feel it very important to teach my child/ren how to cook and to have home cooked meals be a norm for our home.

So, I thought I might share with everyone what I do as I go along. 🙂

Last night we made Goulash Casserole.
Original found Here : http://www.angelfire.com/journal/wwrecipes/364.htm
5 Points Per Serving

My tweaked recipe below.

1 pound ground turkey — browned and drained
1/2 yellow onion — chopped
1 clove garlic — minced
1 jar pasta sauce. (I used whatever was on sale.)
8 ounces tomato sauce
6 ounces tomato paste
1 teaspoon Italian seasoning
1/2 teaspoon salt
1/4 teaspoon pepper
1.5 cup corn, frozen
7 ounces Rotini — cooked and drained
13 ounces spinach, frozen — thawed and drained
1/2 cup Egg Beaters® 99% Egg Substitute
4 ounces cheddar cheese, lowfat — shredded
1/4 cup Fat-free Parmesan Cheese

Preheat oven to 350º.

Spray a 13 inch by 9 inch by 2 inch cake pan.
In large saucepan over medium heat, cook beef, onion and garlic until meat is no longer pink and vegetables are tender. Drain.

Add the next 7 ingredients and bring to a boil. Reduce heat, cover and simmer for 10 minutes.

Stir in pasta, spinach, egg substitute, shredded cheese and bread crumbs. Stir to combine.

Pour into prepared cake pan.

Sprinkle with parmesan cheese

Cover and bake at 350º for 30 to 35 minutes or until hot and bubbly.

Let stand 10 minutes.

Cut into 12 equal servings.

Can freeze leftovers.

— Verdict
Daddio gave this a 4/5. I tend to agree. The servings were VERY filling and satisfying, my only thought was next time I might find a way to add a little more spice or flavor. We use whole wheat pasta and at times the flavor of it can dominate a meal if not compensated for. Something to keep in mind.

However, this was a total go for us! And I loved that I was able to freeze half the left overs and turn the other half into dinner for tonight! Three meals from one dish. Perfecto!!! And at about 5 points a serving (might want to count 6 to be on the safe side…) it fits perfect into my daily allowance.

Lurve this whole cooking thing.

A Step

I am going to call this week and locate a OBGYN and make an appointment to have my IUD removed.

I am scared that

1 – Daddio will think this is me trying to pressure him into having a baby

2 – I will get pregnant (Oh Chit!)

3 – Nothing will change and all these “thingies” I’ve been thinking are because of the IUD will have just been me all along.

There has to be something better than shoving synthetic hormones into my body as a way to prevent my getting pregnant. There has to be something else.

But Why?

Why do you want to lose weight?

  • I hate the way I look. This changes who I am and how I interact with people. Being skinnier enables me to wear the styles of clothing I enjoy and feel good in rather than cover myself up and be a hermit.
  • I want to be willing to jump in front of the camera with my son.
    I want to start TTC next summer without fear of how I will look PG. I want to have a cute baby belly.
  • I want to feel attractive for my husband. I want to be able to wear sexy undies and not feel my stomach hang over them. I want to feel proud to flaunt it and fearlessly have sex with the lights on.
  • I want to ENJOY sex again the way I used to when I was thinner. That is a BIG one.
  • I want to prove my mother wrong that you CAN do it without resorting to surgery because you’re too lazy to follow-through.
  • I want to learn how to eat properly and not let food control me.
  • Respect for my body that is greater than a desire for tasty treats.
  • I want to be an example to my children of how to live healthfully.
  • I never want to be an embarrassment to my children because of my size the way my mother was to me.

the kids are here!

Daddio picked up the missy’s on Friday for a fun filled ten day excursion. Myfavoriteonlychild’s DayCareLady has taken the week off without much consult with me, so it was the perfect impromptu fit.

Today we’ve done letter review. Learned about Alabama, practiced tracing dotted lines and doing mazes. We’ve gone out to lunch, bought new hair ties for the girls, and MissyLou has gone the WHOLE DAY with no accidents.

She arrived in diapers with no potty training from Vex’s house. I think by the end of the week she’ll be done. Seriously. Aside form a major regression issue unforeseen at this time, she’s a smart ass kid who always shows everyone else up by being way ahead.

Pretty much today we’re kicking ass and taking names.

Currently it’s dress up time and the girls are in princess dresses and myfavoriteonlychild is wearing his superhero cape. I love dressup time. The kids go nuts together and have too much fun while I get to not have them clinging on my legs. It’s perfect.

Depression wise I’m doing better. The kids make me better. They keep me busy and motivated and wanting to do things. I want to play and clean and cook and be active. Weight wise I think I’ve put on a few pounds. I’ve been emotional eating. I did a senior photography session last night and being around another 17 yr old skinny minny dancer was rough.

I want to be that thin.

Okay, maybe not THAT thin. But I want to be thin. Really thin. Not just average thin, but a little smaller than average thin. But, of course, wanting something and working to make it happen are two different things. I have to ask myself, how bad do I want that? Do I want it enough to give up habits and foods that I know are getting in the way?

Do I want it enough to give up my diet pepsi?


Who Are These People?

Mav/Momtog/1p2 -
Me. The voice inside your head.

Daddio -
My husband.

MFOC -
Myfavoriteonlychild, my 3 yr old son

MissyMae & MissyLou -
Daddio's two dear daughters from his previous marriage to Vex.

Ama -
My on-again-off-again mother whom MFOC absolutely adores to bits and pieces and I manage to tolerate 6 months and 2 days out of the year.

Vex -
The crazy ex. Because no blended family would be complete without one. (But she's only half crazy EOW & alternating holidays)

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